Morning Pages......

Morning pages, morning pages, morning pages…… Whoah, it’s taken me a week to post this and put out a point of vulnerability in thought without it being edited. Well, I guess I am initializing a little edit because I am typing this from pages that I’ve physically written these words on paper with an ink pen.

You might be asking yourself what are morning pages….Morning pages was a something coined greatly in Julia Cameron’s The Artists Way. It is a tool designed to inhibit growth, creativity, and discipline as an artist. Not focusing or restraining to any type of artist, nor any level of artist. Now what do you define as an artist?

The idea is to write 3 pages, longhand, freeform and truthfully. There is no direction here so nothing has to make any sense in these pages. They could be the same word in every different language or a sentence that loops for 3 pages in a row. 

Well, one morning while I was taking a 8 hour driving course I started my first line or morning pages. I’ll go ahead and spit them out below. Mind you I am not making any changes except for spelling or punctuation. 

After or before if you’ve got any questions please feel free to ask in person or through here :)

Start Morning Pages

Sometimes there seems to be a manner in which you must let everything loose, go against all values, goals, limits, and structure. This defines growth(does it not?) character and sense of self. Maybe I wouldn’t be here writing this if I had never been this way. Despite all my life the majority of it was spent in defilement against all odds, values, presets of good and bad given to me by my parents and society as a whole. My goals, dreams, and wishes. I always wanted to be successful but I also wanted to be BAD ASS. Someone who lived an almost unbelievable movie script life. Plot twists, dramatic climaxes, death, sex, robots, fun, partying, love, and birth. All the things in life, you know? I want life to be full, at least my story that is. Since we’re in the structure of life, I think navigating life in an unrefined way, not knowing what may come next, the constant moment and movement of not knowing is charming, compelling, and euphoric. 

The majority………..Now maybe I am wrong but it seems as if we are catching up to time or maybe that time is catching up to us. Nowadays I tend to have minimized the idea of braving out of the poorly constructed box that defines my existence with no concern of safety  branching out to rebel against values and way of responsible life while learning and living to respect the reality and beauty of simply being alive.

———Break———-( I actually wrote this in my morning pages)

~survival of the fittest~

I am definitely a strong proponent of only the best get success and hard-work should pay off in time not at the instant. I can’t stand these people who blowup over night without putting in any substantial work towards anything. Upon this idea, generally speaking not everyone will be successful and certainly everyone does not deserve success. Let is be blunt; if you do not put forth the effort then I think you should not be even allowed to succeed, let alone hold your rights to freedom. Why? Because you’re deeming yourself useless. A counterpart of life to exhaust natural resources and overly compact minds with nothingness. Now I’m very aware that it takes time to find yourself, involve your life in passion and move forward from there. I’m also aware the after Ione reaches the age or level of life that allows one to retire and enjoy the fruits of a life well lived in a world that seemingly grants individuals the immediate path to success without showing a sign of handwork. More over, people adfe given bundles of glory for  doing one thing right. Solely applauded and appraised for one good merit. Now life isn’t fair, of course I don’t live this nor do I relate, nor let in people who get good life handed to them like candy on halloween evening. It’s just something I believe and in a world of infinite beliefs so mine just flows among the rest and an urge sea of energy flowing from brain to brain amongst human thought. 

I am currently sitting in traffic school. A year and some months ago I ran a red light. Paid my ticket but didn’t pursue traffic school. So my license was suspended for the whole year of 2018 and I didn’t even know it. Not once have I been pulled over and truth be told I never even knew. By the grace of God, good luck, and the angel for my life. This seems to be a testament to my life as a whole. I very well should be dead by now, but I am still standing in prolific happiness. This could be looked at as great luck, but i’m beginning to understand the presence of God in my life and what that means to me in accordance with scriptures and writings along all religions sectors that hold God as the high power. It is very interesting how this is playing out in my life. The more I converse with people of the same likes the more I begin to understand and accept God.

——-Half Break——

Being in this traffic school class seems to make me more awake of these people that inherit the societies we live in. The constant clicking of pens, and anxious foot taps plague the classroom. The stench last night and bad body odor has stained my nose and seems very normal at this point. The constant shaking of the table feels normal and almost comforting.( i’m in a n 8 hour course) I absolutely hate all of this but it feels comforting the more time I spend here, or maybe it’s because i’m getting something out of this…..morning pages. 

The Photos.

I chose these photos because they were took the day before i started the morning pages and well, they mean something to me. Journey seems as if she’s already a star and here are some photos to prove that future.

Weekend Warrior?...

Cheers to the weekend… I think for the first time since I served in the military this past weekend really felt as if I was a weekend warrior. You know the kind of person who works Monday through Friday and Saturday/Sunday are meant for doing things that you find value in other than your job or anything else you may or may not be doing during the week. The weekend seems to lend you the ability to do more, more of what you love, more of what you have a passion for. Cheers to the weekend…

It was south of Tucson for the exploration this weekend. I had extremely loosely planned a weekend in Patagonia Arizona. I honestly just wanted to get away from noise, and signal from most of the world, while explore the southern border and find a place to camp for the future. I didn’t really think of how many photos I was going to take (in hindsight I wish I had taken much much more.) Or even what I would find. My vision of Patagonia was something vast and somber, but Patagonia was true to be vast, but quite the opposite of somber but radiant. To the case that I found the serenity, beauty, and openness of the area to be extremely appealing. I felt as if I vibrated alongside everything that surrounded me. Maybe this was the unconscious relation to where I’m from in Kentucky. The ultimate small town vibe as they might call it today. It seemed glorious in every fashion, and I got to spend my time there with someone I cherish and love very much. I’ve been super inspired by this weekend getaway. Coming back into the real world seems dreamlike, but my arms are open for life. 

Like I mentioned I wish I had took more photos…Alicia and I did shoot a few looks in the landscape of Patagonia but I’ll release those at a later date. These photos were took with my Fujifilm X100, a camera that I love to shoot with but quite frankly it gets on my damn nerves. It shoots like a 35mm rangefinder and it is so slow at focusing and taking the photo that it wills me to slow down and get a decent shot. Alicia thought it would be great to take some photos of me in the shower(she was just playing around) but I really liked the photos so I added a couple by her. The rest are just a few favorites upon some that I took. 

Hope you Enjoyed reading this and Enjoy these photos :)

The First Post

The First Post….

This is an anxious moment for me. Why, you might ask? Because I am embarking on something new with the way I work, and the way I present not only my work, but my ideas, along with any and everything else I see fit.. What is my work you may ask again? Well, it is everything that I will reveal here in my blog and on this website so I hope anyone that is paying attention here can enjoy. 

Let’s start with the beginning and I shall keep it reasonably short. 1986 was the year that birthed me so call me an 80s baby :) and I was raised in Kentucky of all places. Didn’t leave until i was in my early 20s. The only way I felt that I could get out the state comfortably was by joining the military, and I did just that. 6 years in the Navy as a Seabee and no looking back. I was surprisingly, stationed in San Diego California, where I discovered photography by accident. This tool into art quickly consumed my every thought, and after a few years of service to photography we stand here….still the passion remains.

Now that the info is over let’s get down to this year…..(I’m very sure that I will share more things, but for now, minimal.)

Currently, what in the world does adventure look like and how does that feel? I think as a mostly single father every turning point feels like a new start in a direction unkept and likely to be predicted uncertain. Well, maybe just a mostly single father that aspires to be somewhat of a working artist that can live within not only my own needs but alongside the loved ones that surround me now and in the future. So I guess you could say my plans for this year is to be and do everything for the better person of myself.  

Initially I was going to have a “Portraits” section on this website but I felt like that was fulfilling enough. I still just like the idea of letting people see a way into how I work while still maintaining somewhat of a subtle realization of what really is…. or is not. This shoot with Taylor was one of my firsts this year, and it was initiated by wanting to have Taylor the first on my portraits page. Well now there is no portraits page, haha!

I probably go thrifting  a couple of handfuls per month so when I met Taylor, I knew we had to shoot a few looks. So i literally just went in the closet and put some ideas together. Experimentation naturally is so favorable and for the most part I try to shoot portraits and some editorials planning the absolute least. I enjoy having a huge straight forward box to create in. I like for ideas, objects, subject, etc to come into vision naturally and flowing. Or I guess I could say I just have to vibe with it. 

So that kinda wraps it up for the blog post. Hope I didn’t bore you but maybe inspired an idea or a question, or a memory, or a laugh, or some kind of feeling that we can roll with.